Sorry to have missed posting for a couple of days, just caught up on some rest… watched a few movies. Thought about some things my wife and I had talked about.
Naomi is doing much better. Every day brings another victory. I am reminded of a thought I had early on: A thousand baby steps away from the edge means that you are no longer near the edge. Naomi is still in some pain, but we have figured out why. She had an IV in her foot and the doctors were giving her potassium chloride, and it seeped into her skin around the IV site, giving her a pretty nasty little chemical burn. Not an uncommon problem. As a daddy watching her, I know that’s where she hurts. Her tummy hurts her sometimes too because of digestion. We know that these will be fine eventually. The doctors still have not performed a swallow test, they want her to be a little more alert, but from what I have seen over the past hour, she seems pretty alert to me. Reaching for her tummy (it’s hurting again), and eyes wide open. She seems to see us from the periphery of her eyesite. She does not focus and track looking at us straight on, but does from looking at us off center. She is scheduled to have a feeding tube inserted into her tummy on Friday at 8 AM. We are familiar with them, one of our good friends has a little boy with one… that is to say, Wendy is familiar with the feeding tube. I am on a significant lurning curve.
Yesterday Wendy made a comment… she said “thank You God for blessing us with and in this time of testing”. Really got me thinking. Faith. Blessing. Shadow. Light. Last night in prayer for Naomi, I claimed Naomi’s possessions and destiny for her. I had prayed this several times, but last night was different. Faith. Naomi and her journey portray God’s justice and mercy and love for us, all wrapped up in tragedy. The tragedy of Naomi’s drowning is trumped only by God’s miraculous intevention; she is still alive…and getting better daily. Through faith, not hope, we believed. Steadfast. Blessing has rained down on us, and her, because we are now closer to God that at any point in our lives. Nearly crushing. We are glad for the weight. The shadow of spiritual warfare still looms in our life, and it is sharpening us… as in my entire family. Mom, dad, brothers, kids... wife. ME. Through God’s extreme and relentless love and protection of my baby girl, a life changing light has flooded all of our lives. We accept it gladly.
Faith. We thought we had it before. Now we know it.